Monday, November 4, 2013

Life lately.

Hmm.. Life lately .. Well life is good. With no worries ( exception of money) and stress. What can I ask for more? Freedom? Ah , yes. Having jogs every Sunday is the best. Releasing all the post-exam stress , absorb into nature , breathing in the fresh air , having talks with them you know being truthfully , being yourself is the best. Not that I'm not being myself the normal days but you know. Being silly for a day is also good.:) The first Sunday , I had window shopping with Farina and just realised we've almost the same taste in fashion (plain ,simple) I wished I know her better. Not forgetting others , I missed them too . Previously , during Tara's birthday which falls on Halloween we had lunch at Manhattan together with Aqilah , Sania , Sufiah and of course the birthday girl. And yes , I wished the whole group members can come.

So recently , I had hiking with tara at the fort canning , walk around clark quay. I can say that I'm really blessed to have Hagelabubu ( sorry if wrong spelling) as my closest friends. Rather have few trust able friends than a bunch of fake people. 18 days more to prom and I've no idea why I'm dreading it.

Maybe this kind of event doesn't really suit me. Yeah , being quite anti-social. It feels weird not studying.
Not to say that I am a study nerd or what just that I kind of used to study for exams and now. Slack.
Well , I wanted a job but sadly no vacant. Would love to try working in a cafe but I'm left with 1&1/2 months might as well prepare for some stuff. I always wanted the whole group (complete)  to hang out but now.. Is it so difficult? Sigh. I'm dreading for 19 December. I am really really scared. You know the feeling when you feel like your heart is about to come out ? Yeah , thats how I feel.

I have no idea why but I still feel lost. Well , time really flies too quickly. ( I know , I keep harping on it but still.) Just can't believe that Tara is going back to New Zealand. Gosh , I'll miss her. Though at times I am envy of her results. Well, she's hard working.  Currently listening to secret garden ost. My fav playlist. Thats all about it. Bye.
Fort Canning swing!

Fort canning , we found this around the graveyard.

During her birthday

Fort canning too:)
At Funan digital mall :)

Thursday, October 17, 2013

It is finally over!

Finally , major ecams over!  Yay.
FREEEEDDDOOOMM! CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW! Gonna have a graduation ceremony and have a jog tomorrow with my friends!  Finally I have a fitness buddy!  Woohooo! 
I don't know why but at times I know I have to be happy as exams finally over but I am scared of the results and tend to feel scared. Ahhh.  Last few days instead of hardcore studying i did some exercise by doing sit up , cycling (stationery bike) my leg and stomach hurts. Well i can feel that i have burnt some tummy fats i think well ,nvm. Gtg bye!

Sunday, October 13, 2013

..

Why do I feel this way ?
I have no idea .
Let's fake a smile.

Well , I saw that coming.
Not surprising at all.

So it is best not to care.
Stay away as far as you can.
So there's no hard feelings there.
The fact that everyone leaves eventually.  

Monday, October 7, 2013

Today

Mood: sad, happy

Well , mixed.  SAD? That goes without saying . Exams. :/

Happy?  As I studied with my hags (some of them)

Gotta study harder for other subjects
Siew Leng , fighting! Few days more to endure.  Don't regret it like you did today.  Stop regretting .

Never look down

Never look down on people , always give a helping hand. Who knows in future the person might help you?

I was enlightened by today's situation where no one around me had a pencil to lend me til someone unexpectedly lend me. I was so so so grateful though it is just a pencil.  It was during a major exam when I realized I didn't have one with me.

Not all the people in the second/third class are bad , there are good ones as well.

Not all Normal Academic/ Normal Technical arr bad there are good people there as well.
Not all students in the good classes are good there are bad students as well.

So, don't judge a person whether he/she is which stream. 

Character & value is the most important thing in the world.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Random

Imagine you were just  a toddler playing innocently with some toys , out of a sudden someone just throw you out and blamed you for playing his/her kids new toys how would you feel?  Well. That's reality. A sad one.

Friday, October 4, 2013

CCA

I will miss my CCA! Though it is boring at times.
I will miss some of juniors too !XD
At times , I miss painting and seal craving ! :(
After exams , after exams..










It is coming to an end ..

It has been four years! Just can't believe it! Everything just seems like yesterday.
Along the way, I have met different types of people. I remember when I first step into secondary school everything looks so fresh and scary? It was way so different than primary school. Unlike being a girl that I used to be in primary school that chatty , crazy girl , I have learnt that it is better to be quiet than chatty . Haha. Though I am crazy , insane whenever I am with my clique. I don't really want to open up mainly because I think that people are judgemental? Maybe because , it is safer to be quiet who knows when I'll get bash up for saying the wrong thing?
 When you are loud , they'd be like " this girl is so noisy!"
So preferred , quiet. Through these years , I've learnt to open up , to others too (well , some)
I have no idea but I just don't really go to others , I am always in my comfort zone . Yeah , call me a nerd , anti social.
Year 1
The first day of school is always scary to me. I don't know anyone in the school as most of the students knows each other since primary school. Just.. Feel so left out in there. I feel scared.
Then, the first person that spoke to me was Sabrina. We used to very close but eventually she found her friend , and I found mine , we eventually spilt up. 
From that class, I found my best friend , PQ. Then Eugenia. 
We were really close friends , all in all we were chummy together. 
Oh , yes Aggie she's awesome . She's friendly , cool , straightforward .I remember the very first day when I saw her taking uniform she was fashionable with her cool spects on.
Year 1 was okay I guess.
Those days when we were innocent and fun.
Year 2
Well, things didn't go as I expected it to be. Many things happened in year2.
There were good , bad memories.
The good:
Sec2 Malacca trip!I shared room with PQ. Next to us , Nadirah & Jin hui.
So happened that PQ and I get two single beds , Nad and Jin Hui had a queen size bed. 
So Nad and JH decided to swop rooms with us. Thankfully , we are able to connect our rooms together so we won't feel so lonely as our rooms are at the far end way way far away from other girls. We connected our rooms , turn on the radio like having a party. There was an incident when we went to the petrol station to buy food and one of the teachers got robbed. Some of the students passport were lost. Thankfully, they had a photocopied one. The next day , they had to go to the police station. And also, one of the express bus go into an incident. Everytime when the teacher spot check on us in the hotel , we would pretend to sleep and swop back until the teacher leaves. That was funny. My form teachers , Mrs Ang and Miss Lu were the best teachers ever.
When PQ felt sick along the trip , Mrs Ang went to buy crackers , milo and medicine. 
She bought milo & crackers as PQ didn't eat much but PQ didn't eat the crackers as she doesn't eat plain crackers so PQ&I went to Eug room and had a eating session there. The girls rooms were all connected It looks so wide and long. 
Well , good times didn't last. We had misunderstanding and bla blah. Oh and yes , those freaking ass immature guys kept disturbing PQ and I. That was horrible.From that year onwards, I worked hard thinking to go into a different class as those boys.Not forget to mention , Aqilah was my best friend too , she is simple & quiet. Though I feel gulity treating her badly.
I had kayaking course , the capsize drill was horrifying.
So what happened to Eug & I ? Well, Eugenia went on and became friends with Farina. 
Her character ? She is .. juvenile.
Farina ? She is mature , sensible and quiet.
I remember going out with Shaz , having lunch with her at whitesands had a great time with her :)
Shaz is outgoing , fun to be with. She is my favourite friend :)

Year 3
I did it! I went to the first class. Was elated as I am able to be with my awesome friends like Tara , Sufiah.
Being in the new environment , adapting to new classmates wasn't easy.
Then , I met Sania. Although we were in the class for 2 years but we rarely talk.She is quiet , humorous at times. Just can't use words to describe. Haha. Whereas for Tara , she is friendly, humble, humorous , she is someone that can cheer you up , listen to you. Sufiah ? She is sensible , cute, she reminds me of a teddy bear.  Oh and through mt lesson I forgot secondary 2/3 , mt lesson was a fun one with Mdm Zhang as my mt teacher :D. Her lesson was enjoyable though boring at times. I had VIA with the class at Kallang River but the weather wasn't favourable we went there to collect garbage while canoeing but out of a sudden , It rained heavily that was when I feel that the class was bonded. We helped each other , teamwork was involved esp some people that I did not expect that would help me , did. That was a good experience with the class though It  was raining heavily , there were a storm. We were under the bridge , helping each other though our boat kept going out of the shed( under the bridge). I sat the same boat as tara. For form class day , it was at sentosa , it was fun I guess.

Year 4 
This year is a crucial year. Where major exams are around the corner. 
Hmm.. Through the years , I get to know my classmates more and I find that this class is really fun and interesting. We had class day at ecp and it rained but the class was kinda bonded too which I like. Well , mt lesson was okay I guess except for the annoying teacher that I have mt lessons were quite fun at times. 
I can say that I met some awesome teachers along the way like miss yap(giving us mock test which helps me a lot) , mdm imelda (she made me have interest in ss) , mr lee(made poa understandable), mr ong (common sentence ;" is that clear? ") XD,Mr Ang (teacher always smiling), Mr Thong (made physics understandable), Mr Nazrul (Cool chem teacher), Mr Sri (trying to make eng lessons interesting forever asking for presentation which kinda help me as I have stage fright), Mdm Siti ( SHE'S THE BEST,  she's fun , always cracking jokes I love her lessons), Mr Phoa ( always available for students to ask questions
After sch school) , Miss Shawal ( okay I guess at times funny) 
My hagabubuians too! Ahhh , they are the best people ever.  They are always with me when I need help. 
I would rather have a few trustable , close friends than a bunch of fake friends.  
True much. 
Can't describe all the hagabubuians but just to let you know they are cool , funny awesome bunch of people. 
l will miss you , Haz!
Haz is my cute little friend!
All in all , I would really miss this awesome class. I can't wait to get rid of the exams. Hwaiting!

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Today

Mood: tired , happy
Today is just an ordinary day , daily routine wake up early in the morning by snoozing the alarm for times dragging myself , wash up, changed to uni , breakfast then head to school. Just that these days I just feel draggy,  tired , lifeless.  No mood to talk at times , not knowing what to do , apparently lost.  So , I had my poa test and didn't really fare well in it due to insufficient revision.  Well that brings the whole day down even more. Just thinking of it just. .. literally ruin the day even more. But I saw that coming.

After all that , it was poa lesson  . We literally slack in the atrium cause we can't find the teacher it was fun we kinda bond err.. yeah . But I don't mind.  Mr ang passed by , he wad smiling while asking us why we weren't in class and we simply just say that we dropped the subject and he was like speechless.  Then Sufiah and I went to gazebo to wait for sun and tara. That time I was feeling really tired but tried to smile . Out of a sudden mr lee saw us Sufiah& I tried to hide XD well Gonna be dead tmr morning.  And this probably sum up today.  Bye. :) gotta study.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Some photos.

Recently.

Mood: confused , not knowing what to do.
          Lethargic,  unmotivated.
Hi. So recently , I just finish my some of the major exams and it is going to resume soon. I've no idea why lately I just feel so tired.  Worst of all , I have yet to study physics & geog and a little bit of chem.  Hmmm. Ever since sec 3, I took fnn and poa as my core subject I am kind of interested in poa well the opposite of poa. My poa results just .. slipped? As I don't understand certain things and gradually lost interest in it. And yes,  im a kind of person who studies with interest and understanding it so i can say that it is a bad thing. But nonetheless I tried to "like" the subject , understand it . And now I find it manageable. Plans for the future course? Still unsure.  But definitely not related to drawing , accounting . More on food and nutrition as im interested in food chem.

But for now, I just need the motivation to study.. just lack of it . Ive no idea.  Its a really bad thing. Oh and yes , I had a hair cut.  Its pretty short for me. Though I just dont care anymore. It'll grow right. 

Oh , recently a friend of mine , Tara introduced me to rock music . Well mostly classic rock . Surprisingly , I love it . I didn't expect myself to like other music genre except for pop. Well, thats my new discovery.

I've been pretty anti social lately I guess. . Maybe because of exams. Lame excuse huh? But still , this is one of the main reason. Don't ask me why. Im just wierd. And its like if you talk too much people will call you noisy isn't it? So it is better to keep quiet at times and talk at the appropriate time.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

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Hmmmm.... that night I was bored ... yeah I've uneven eyes.  

LATE POST NDP PHOTOS

Recently. ..

Hmmm.. recently. .. on the 30th August which is few days ago, I went back for dental appointment. . I went to the dental straight after school , took mrt there , exit the wrong exit and almost got lost in Singapore.. So.. I was an hour early..Due to the previous 2nd /3rd molar tooth being extracted , the hole still didn't really close up (surprisingly it did move) the dentist changed a stronger wire and he add on more power chains. Changed my rubber to red.  Yeah. It looks kinda weird.  Anyways. Initially , I dont feel the pain and had bak ku teh with my mum right after the app.  BUT WHEN I GET BACK FOR DINNER... I'M UNABLE TO CHEW A DAMN THING.  IT HURTS BADLY.  It is worse than the previous one . Well I think because of the power chain. Hmm was unable to any hard stuff until day 3. Literally bought mc spicy for no reason. Hmmm I guess that sums up my braces thingy.

Hmmm .. had a boat ride with my aunts and cousin few weeks ago I guess. 

So.. for the past pe lessons I've been doing some sort of cardio workout for ACES Day. Hmm its very tiring . I don't get some work out. :x for the first day , Sufiah couldn't take it after the whole workout and wasn't feeling well. :( Of course , as a friend of hers,  sun and I went to buy 100plus for her and we stayed in the tnl lab for the whole recess it was awesome! Chilling in the air conditioning room XD . Just glad that there's teacher's day etc. I need my sleep.  Oh of course , study too . Haven't been studying really hard core kind yet. Well going to though.  Oh yes I went into another class for poa it was okay , understandable.  Kinda understand poa now. Oh and miss cristy came back for a day only. For F&N, as usual with mdm siti's jokes etc it's fun although things get serious at times.  Thats all I guess.  Bye!

Monday, August 26, 2013

Today.

Today was okay I guess.  Just that I feel a little bit tired.  Had a motivational work shop it's kind of useful.  Learnt a lot from there. Well gtg.  Bye!

Sunday, August 25, 2013

.

My previous post... Sigh. My English is just. . "amazing"

Saturday, August 24, 2013

Update on life

Well , haven't been blogging lately.  Perhaps due to my busy schedule. Exams etc. Hmm.. I've gone through my prelims. Results wasn't pessimistic. It wasn't what I expected . Life's pretty okay I guess though some problems to be solved. For the past few days , I just feel vexed.  Everything seems to be in a mess. It's not what I wanted.  Well ... I was feeling really really upset last night.  Well . Wouldn't want to mention about it anymore. Until someone gave me some strength , asking me to move on . No point hanging on to it right.   I just hope that every thing would be resolved soon . I know my English isnt really good. Trying to improve on it . Languages are my weakness .  Just can't believe that my major exams is in few weeks time. Its time to strive for my goal. Other than that , we'll see after major exams.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

YAY.

I guess I'm getting better compared to just now . Cause I just had my dinner.
Before having my diner , I felt so tired , body kinda ache .
But now after my dinner i feel more energetic.
Hopefully I can recover soon.
I hate coughing , and with medicine ard , it makes me feel weak & dizzy& drowsy.
Idk why, but  at times I feel that whenever I'm down I tend to feel negative.
Well, my mood swings I guess lol.
I tend to be sensitive.
I know.
Gotta try to be positive.
But really , at times i do feel left out for no reason.
As if no one cares.
I always thought my parents didn't care about me anymore.
But today , I think they did by small lil actions.
By asking me how am i etcs.
Cause i've always thought my mum only cares about grades ( well , still )
But it seems better.
Gawd, I gotta stop being sensitive.
Shouldn't I be thankful enough that I don't have flu.
I hate having flu.
Well , gotta study now. Bye bye.

Alone .

Sometimes , I don't know why everything in this world seems so fake.
Fake friends around aka hypocrites .
Why?
At times , I really don't know who to trust , who are truly good to me.
Because it always seems that people ard me just come and I've to admit , people do come and go.
I just feel that I'm a temporary person. Ok , at least for some.
I'm gotta be independent , not to rely on people too much.
Idk why but i feel that if i throw out all my unhappiness at someone , the person would feel unhappy too.
Which I don't want it to happen.
So yeah , I would rather keep everything.
Perhaps , I'm the only child in the family so at times I'm used to being alone.
I know major exams are ard the corner , I shld study but I still feel a lil bit dizzzy due to medication.
I'll be fine soon. I'm gonna be strong no matter what happens.
Stay strong , fighting..

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

The unexpected.

Hi , didn't blog for quite a long time because lately i've been busy...
So.. Last night , I received some bad news.
Of course , I wouldn't feel good right. Feel kinda devastated .
Kind of neglect him. We hardly communicate at times.
I would always think that he didn't care about me.

I wasn't a thoughtful kid. Not at all.
Every time people would ask if i'm the only child , I nod my head.
They would be like wow , you can have everything , u don't needa share it with anyone.
Yeah that's how i feel for the past few years.
I feel fortunate to have sucha loving family I guess , though we don't show it physically.
But at times , friction do occur.
That was the time I would feel alone.
I'm used to be alone. No matter what , I would try to resolve everything by myself.
Its like if i tell u guys what can u help?
I comfort myself.
At times, I know he's tired but my dad , he would never try to cheer me up.
He would crack some cold jokes to cheer me up.
I thought he didn't care but he did.
My mum encouraged me to work but my dad?
I thought he would agree.
He didn't ! He discouraged me.
Every night , he would ask me .
If I've enough money for tomorrow.
Of course i said no haha.
I'm really afraid that my parents would leave me from this cold world.
Where fake friends are ard , hypocrites , everywhere.
I'm really scared. What happens if it does happen?
I really regretted being a disobedient child. Really. At times , i'm rebellious but my parents tolerated.
I just wanted to spill out all my thoughts and feelings in this blog post. Alrights , bye.