YAY.

I guess I'm getting better compared to just now . Cause I just had my dinner.
Before having my diner , I felt so tired , body kinda ache .
But now after my dinner i feel more energetic.
Hopefully I can recover soon.
I hate coughing , and with medicine ard , it makes me feel weak & dizzy& drowsy.
Idk why, but  at times I feel that whenever I'm down I tend to feel negative.
Well, my mood swings I guess lol.
I tend to be sensitive.
I know.
Gotta try to be positive.
But really , at times i do feel left out for no reason.
As if no one cares.
I always thought my parents didn't care about me anymore.
But today , I think they did by small lil actions.
By asking me how am i etcs.
Cause i've always thought my mum only cares about grades ( well , still )
But it seems better.
Gawd, I gotta stop being sensitive.
Shouldn't I be thankful enough that I don't have flu.
I hate having flu.
Well , gotta study now. Bye bye.

Alone .

Sometimes , I don't know why everything in this world seems so fake.
Fake friends around aka hypocrites .
Why?
At times , I really don't know who to trust , who are truly good to me.
Because it always seems that people ard me just come and I've to admit , people do come and go.
I just feel that I'm a temporary person. Ok , at least for some.
I'm gotta be independent , not to rely on people too much.
Idk why but i feel that if i throw out all my unhappiness at someone , the person would feel unhappy too.
Which I don't want it to happen.
So yeah , I would rather keep everything.
Perhaps , I'm the only child in the family so at times I'm used to being alone.
I know major exams are ard the corner , I shld study but I still feel a lil bit dizzzy due to medication.
I'll be fine soon. I'm gonna be strong no matter what happens.
Stay strong , fighting..

The unexpected.

Hi , didn't blog for quite a long time because lately i've been busy...
So.. Last night , I received some bad news.
Of course , I wouldn't feel good right. Feel kinda devastated .

Kind of neglect him. We hardly communicate at times.
I would always think that he didn't care about me.

I wasn't a thoughtful kid. Not at all.
Every time people would ask if i'm the only child , I nod my head.
They would be like wow , you can have everything , u don't needa share it with anyone.
Yeah that's how i feel for the past few years.
I feel fortunate to have sucha loving family I guess , though we don't show it physically.
But at times , friction do occur.
That was the time I would feel alone.
I'm used to be alone. No matter what , I would try to resolve everything by myself.
Its like if i tell u guys what can u help?
I comfort myself.

At times, I know he's tired but my dad , he would never try to cheer me up.
He would crack some cold jokes to cheer me up.
I thought he didn't care but he did.
My mum encouraged me to work but my dad?
I thought he would agree.
He didn't ! He discouraged me.
Every night , he would ask me .
If I've enough money for tomorrow.
Of course i said no haha.
I'm really afraid that my parents would leave me from this cold world.
Where fake friends are ard , hypocrites , everywhere.
I'm really scared. What happens if it does happen?
I really regretted being a disobedient child. Really. At times , i'm rebellious but my parents tolerated.
I just wanted to spill out all my thoughts and feelings in this blog post. Alrights , bye.